What the fucks?

DMV...need I say more?! I went to get my picture taken for the third time because the camera broke the first two times...then this bitchy lady tells me I have to wait five more months from today cuz of some shit about an "issuing date" which she never said when we called in the first few times. There's more to it...it's a lotta technical stuff that doesn't matter but basically I have no way of getting my license now, even though I was going to get it very soon. With a job, violin, and needing to go downtown three times a week I need this license. It's not even about joy rides and hanging out, I need this for not pissing my damn parents off even more and being able to get there without them bitching about having to take me. I don't know how much longer I can lean on people for rides cuz I'm sick of not being self-reliant. It just seems like every time I think I'm going to get something...it goes away. I don't want to get into other stuff with my boyfriend cuz it's the same deal. I can't really see him and his parents keep pulling him away. I feel like I'm being toyed with. This probably isn't that interesting and all...but I needed to vent. I just don't have words for how shitty I feel. This is probably way emo but I don't care much. I can't even explain to my own bf how I feel I just wanna cry or scream or something. It probably doesn't help that I'm dizzy and just saw a shitty movie "Mr and Mrs Smith"...but at least I got to see Matt and my friends. All this thinking and being unemotional stable makes me feel sick to my stomach. Sorry...I just needed to vent, I don't want any sympathy cuz it's probably nothing compared to what other people have to sometimes go through.